Postgame Report: 0-2 On My Strange Play
There is no point in hoping, resigned to my 0-2 tonight. I hate sitting with hope.
I watch the games, and they are close. And both games go against me as soon as I tune in and it's almost like it is a setup simply to upset me and destroy my heart.
And that's what this gambling game is mostly about some sort of resignation to the inevitable. You get to the point where it doesn't mean a thing anymore, it's just another mundane bullshit activity to keep you distracted.
I'm distracted in a state of disbelief in myself. Have no ability to defeat the powers that make me feel so small.